this is around the time
where i freak out
for the billioneth time.

wtf life.... don't you ever get better???

Put an X by the things you have done and a 0 for the things you want to do...

(x) been to Europe

(0) Been on a cruise

(x) Gone on a blind date

(x) Skipped school

( ) Watched someone die

(0) Been to Canada

(0) Been to Mexico

(0) Been to Florida

(x) Been on a plane

( ) Been lost

(0) Been on the opposite side of the country

(x) Been to Washington , DC

(0) Been to Vegas

(x) Climbed a lighthouse

(X) Swam in the ocean

(0) Been Sky Diving

(x) Seen the Cherry Blossoms in Washington , D.C. (not just in pictures)

(X) Played cops and robbers.

(0) Flown a plane

(0) Owned a boat

( ) Watched grandchildren grow

(X) Recently colored with crayons

( ) Been to the Kentucky Derby

(0) Been to Key West

(x) Been to a rodeo

(X) Sang Karaoke

(X) Paid for a meal with coins only?

(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?

(x) Made prank phone calls

(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose/mouth

(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue

(x) Danced in the rain

(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus

(x) Been kissed under the mistletoe

(X) Watched the sunrise with someone

( ) Seen the green flash at sunset HUHH?

(X) Blown bubbles

(X) Gone ice-skating

(X) Gone to the movies

(0) Owned a convertible



1.. Any nickname? mandy

2. Mother's name? donna

3. Body Piercing? Ears

4. How much do you love your job? enough if i have a good book

5. Birthplace? de

6. Ever been to Hawaii? No

7. Ever been to Africa? No

8. Ever eaten just cookies for dinner? YES

9. Ever been on TV? yes

10. Ever steal any traffic sign? perhaps

11. Ever been in a car accident? very tiny ones that dont count

12. Drive a 2-door or 4-door vehicle? 4-Door

13. Favorite number - 23

14. Favorite movie – into the wild

15. Favorite holiday? don't like them

16. Favorite dessert? depends

17. Favorite burger joint? red robins

18. Favorite food? chicken fingers or quesadillas

19. Favorite day of the week? different all the time

20. Favorite brand of body wash? st ives i guess

21. Favorite smell? i have lots

22. How do you relax? by filling out dumb survey's and listening to movies on mute and going to work but not actually doing any work cause hollywood keeps producing crap

23. How do you see yourself in 10 years? i don't think that far ahead

24. Furthest place you will send this message? uhhh what

25. Who will respond to this the fastest? your mama

i've got way too many things going on in my head (and on the screen...) and nothing of any importance. i spent the whole day trying to get my brain moving and now it just won't stop. i need something to shut it up. seriously.

i get 35 channels now! yay! some of them always seem to be searching for a signal though... i preferred non digital, cause then i could at least watch them fuzzy. a few days before i got my coupon my dvd player broke. wtf. not bad timing, but still. i'm so broke. and i want to finish re-watching all of buffy (for the third or tenth time, or maybe somewhere in between).

but this is pretty cool. i just finished watching annie liebovitz documentary.
now i'm looking at every single cover Rolling Stone has ever had. that'll keep me busy for most of the night.
and i've got 10 pages of photos to edit and label on flickr.
plus two years of photos to sort.

and the wire.... i was watching the series on dvd. and the shield. i was in the middle of three shows! damnitt. now i have to wait a month til i can maybe afford a new one.

saw eric church last week. had a good time, but my friend lost his wallet and the audience was louder than the singer most of the concert. everyone was a drunken mess. i'd love to see him in a real venue (not a bar in dewey), but i doubt that'd be as cheap.

rising sun is on now; it looks like shit.

and away we go.

(...isn't that the name of a new movie i want to see?)

stephen when the hell did you change your name?? i'm so uninvolved in the livejournal world these days.
lets just say the world in general.

i need to get a second job again, but i'm putting if off as long as possible. which is stupid, cause i also need to go back to school in the fall. smart thing woulda been to get my job on in june and save til august.
it's stupid though--i think, i'm not sleeping, i might as well work 70+ hours a week. and when i do that i'm too tired to function. but when i don't do that i feel like i'm wasting the time that most people spend sleeping.
i don't know if i explained that right. but i did it a few years in a row, so i know what i'm talking about.

harry potter on tuesday? seriously? i don't understand how m10s not making me work 70 hour weeks. all this time off is messing with my head.

oh! i almost forgot. not that anyone here would/could go... but i don't want to forget to go myself! wednesday night is chickfila's grand opening (well, thursday is) and if you're one of the first couple hundred ppl you get free food for a year. at any of them, not just the new one. yay.

and by the way, is there a cure for awkwardness?

a scrape against silence
a knife against a plate
makes the sound of
need on hate

and i am drifting
without an anchor
through your
ambiguous region
strange continent
immune to all reason

and i'm flattered
by your grey matter

and....
"Keith Richards got busted on a drug charge in Canada, and his sentence was to have the Stones put on a show in Canada for sight-impaired people." It goes on. This guy got to shoot the most amazing photos ever, because the first 18 rows were reserved for the blind.

but what the? 'normally, you'd get a five year sentence for this....but since you're a rock star....just play a charity show for us'

the photographer is richard aaron, and i fucking love him

wow

i thought i needed a life

ok... i love rob thomas and alicia silverstone, but wtf? anyone see his newest video?
http://www.vh1.com/video/play.jhtml?artist=1241405&vid=380630
i love the song too (it was another psychic thing), but what a bad choice for a single

20 Things You May or May Not Believe

1) the biggest movie of the summer just hit, and i have three days off in a row
2) i took my friend and her two kids to an abused woman's shelter last week
3) joey is a genius
4) i drink coffee instead of taking anti-depressants
5) i slept 12 hours last night
6) at this exact moment, i'm committing an offense 'punishable by federal law' (i dare you to guess- it's easy)
7) i steal clothes, books, and food on a regular basis
8) my theater has a 3-D projector up and running
9) the new theater is still scheduled to open next year, but it doesn't have a location yet
10) i found a snapping turtle that is bigger than my mini-fridge (which is quite large)
11) i'm in a towel because my head hurts too much to put clothes on
12) this is perhaps the nicest day in a month, and i'm too hurty to enjoy it
13) i've been watching the jesus channel for two weeks, cause it's the only one that hasn't gone digital
14) said friend has a cat locked inside her house with no food or water, because i can't get in contact with her and her son has my key
15) i tried to break-in but someone saw me and i ran
16) i'm going back tonight with a ladder (there's an open sun-room at the top of their 3 story townhouse)
17) there's someone on tv telling me how to play trombone by putting my lips together
18) when i was 19, my friends took random things from people's porches and threw them into a bonfire. mostly christmas trees, but there was a gumball machine and some lawh furniture, too
19) they were only my friends for one night (but not for that reason)
20) all the people i ever get close to hate me or abandon me :(